Leaving for taiwan mega soon. Haha. Dreamt of 2 of my close friends in sec 1 that I really should be talking to again ;) haha.
Thankful for my parents. I really don’t mind heading there alone but I guess being the youngest they’re naturally the most worried for me.
I want to experience more of Him in the trip. Even in a foreign place, I want to see Him using me to do stuff for Him. (:
And I hope I have wifi there. Cause this phone has absolutely no songs.
SUPER EXCITE FOR THE LOADS OF SLEEP IM GONNA GET WHEN I REACH THERE! (:
Got to spend less time on Facebook and more with God. It’s polluting my mind, blah. And it’s not like I talk to people, look at people’s profiles. I just go to newsfeed and stone there. I guess it’s a habit thing now? And I probably should stop it. -_- Kay Facebook fast from now.
Twitter fast too.
thinking.
Don’t feel like posting anyth.
Goodnight world. (:
A girl with such little faith.
My Grades are really really bad.
USSDD? aha.
I don’t feel sad.. Just a bit confused.
Does that mean that Alevels’ just not the thing for me?
or maybe I just need more practice…
I tend to do worse in bigger exams.. So mid years and promos will be a .___. for me.
Ah what to do.
Just try harder and see what God’s gonna do.
Well on the bright side, i’m beginning to accept these small failures in life.. and appreciate more of life now. (:
Do grades determine who I am/where I stand? nope nope they don’t.
The attitude behind it is what matters isn’t it :)
And i’m proud of myself for being able to feel happy for my friends even though I got a U for my math. Lol. And Econs. for this term.
Things will be fine. Just try!
:) Feeling so blessed. I’m sure my joy in studying today and perseverance was given by God. As in really, all I do is worry worry worry. When I don’t, it’s really the peace in my heart that allows me to pull through.
I feel so blessed to have such friends. I love them so much. :) so cute.
I hope I can trust in God and not panic. I have such little faith. And every time I meet a boulder I just panic and go crazy. Why not just sit there and enjoy God?
I don’t care if I do well or whatever. But I really do pray and hope that tomorrow’s exam will be so filled with him i’ll just enjoy doing it. I want to be able to do everyth w Him, and not worry. I know that’s what I want and what I need. (:
I think it’s so amazing that I didn’t feel tired most of the time at the study corner.
Gonna listen to this song, then sleep. :)
http://youtu.be/xGPS8sa-bRQ
I’ve always thought that as Christians we got to be ______ cause we want to be different from our friends and show God in us. But when it’s forced it’s just not counted isn’t it.
Like God never told us to FORCE ourselves to behave in a certain way. He said to do so through Him. So by living a life filled with Him, we can naturally step away from our sins and all those.
Anw.. In the past I’ll always hope and pray that people will see God in me. And it’s true what Jess said.. I have really high expectations of myself.. And sometimes I feel bad for not being able to care for ppl like how God cares for me etc. but I realized that.. God can really be seen in me..
It is through my imperfections that I see so much of God in. It’s when I know that I can’t really sing.. Yet can sing whenever I worship.. It’s when I know I can’t talk, or get my ideas across well. Yet when I’m touched by the Holy Spirit, words of encouragement/prayers/word from God just comes so naturally to me.
I don’t naturally feel for the lost, people who run away from God.. But when it strikes I feel so much. And I guess these are part of how I can sense God working through in my life. And I really think God made me become someone who’s so amazing, so used by Him. Such that now when people see me.. It’s less of ‘omgosh stop talking’ but
More of ‘woohoo the light!’ (or at least I hope hehe).
Thankyou..
27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not —to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. 30 It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness,holiness and redemption. 31 Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.”
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Yeah on my thinking seat now!
I was talking to linx just now and though I’ve said this a gazillion times, I really think that God uses me in such amazing ways.
God uses the despised things.
I think the best testimony I can relate to is myself. I was probably more condemned than anyone in the level in sec 1. Cause when you’re loud it’s an immediate turn off and people just judge you based on that.
God chooses the foolish things..
Whenever I talk it doesn’t make sense isn’t it. Sometimes it just sounds like some parrot rambling on and on about her life or saying sth random like ‘oh look a hippo’ or ‘look an elephant’.
God chooses the lowly things of the world.
I don’t have good grades. I’m not naturally super caring (or caring at all), I can’t sing well.
And yet, He chooses to use me.
I really believe that it is when I worship that God anoints my voice and suddenly it can sound super nice. Sometimes when I’m on stage and I hear my voice.. It really sounds so good. But that’s not my voice and I know it. When I sing alone at home, that’s not the voice I hear (even if I try to add emotions etc).
I don’t think I’m very spiritually mature.. Yet He speaks to me in such strong ways.. Sometimes about the person across the prayer room.. Or sometimes about the ministry..
There are times where my spiritual relationship with Him just stinks Max.. And yet He will without fail reveal more of Himself to me..
And words don’t naturally come into my head.. I don’t know what I’m supposed
To do for worship. Yet He shows Himself to me In my little room and suddenly I know what He wants.
I was telling Linx how when people see me now, and I tell them all these.. They’ll be like ‘hmm.. Really?’. But then when they see me in the past and now. I think it’s so obvious how much God uses me.. And it’s really by His grace that I receive such blessings.. Because to be honest, I’m one of the most useless people I’ve ever known.. And Yet I’m so blessed.
It’s really by God’s grace that I can be so blessed.. Sigh..
TOO AWESOME LIAOZ.
